Three days of contemplation:

I've been doing a lot of thinking, and asking the Universe for guidance. I've also been journaling about how things have, (or have not,) been going. I'll post it when I'm done.

I'm hopeful that my upcoming pain consultation on the 1st will help. I want to be able to write, and play my drums, and not be in pain all the time. There are some other "issues" as well, which I'll post about.

It's been a difficult time lately, and my ego didn't want to step aside long enough for me to admit some limitations caused by this nerve injury in my back. I've also been asking the Universe (God) for the willingness to quit smoking cigarettes for weeks. I was honest enough with myself to know that I was not willing to give up the addiction. I'm feeling the willingness, so it's time to set a new "quit date." Will I be successful? I have no idea. I'm just going to take a day at a time, (or a minute at a time if need be.) I've learned long ago not to make any promises around this drug.

I've also been picking up some of my "spiritual tools" that I put out of thought. On Wednesday I'll have enough pain medication to post this journal entry I've been working on, and hopefully catch up with friends and family through these social networks we use.

I hope everyone is well and happy. I think I'm starting to get there again.

(Cross-posted to my various social network sites; Live Journal, Dreamwidth, Facebook and Google+)